The Power of a Name: Annabelle Finds Her Purpose

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So if you know me or have followed my blog for a while you know that I’ve been wrestling with the meaning of life and struggling to find my purpose for literally years. Which is normal I think – a lot of people wrestle with this question for their entire lives. Some of them never actually find the answer.
My mentor, Will, taught me the best way to live, to give back, and to find your purpose, is to follow your dreams. I couldn’t agree more.

So throughout the years I would write down my dreams, and the things that made me truly happy.
Over and over again through different seasons of growth and change, I’d write down what it was that made me come alive. What were my passions? What did I love to do? When I felt lost or like I was lagging, I would go back to the list.

To my frustration, some of the things on this list would be different from the last time, leaving me feeling like I was at square one again trying to figure my life out. And it seemed like nothing I liked could ever work together for one greater purpose.

My Twitter Bio says “Writing, dancing, and brainstorming to make the world a better place.” Please tell me how that makes sense. How could I do all of those things at once? How could I give my random travels a purpose? My modeling? My love for business? For so long I felt like I liked too many different things to take any one job that would really make me happy. I knew I had to create it for myself – but I didn’t know what to call it or what it would look like.

Well, yesterday it hit me.

“It” is the guiding label I could give myself for my life purpose. Where I could combine my different passions to create all sorts of different projects that didn’t restrict me at all and would continue moving me in one simple world changing direction.

I was eating leftover spaghetti out of a plastic container for lunch when it hit me, and I got up and ran to write “it” down: “I love connecting people, so I create opportunities for other people. I produce opportunities through vision, connection, and passion. I am a producer of opportunity”

From my “Project Wall” AKA “The Dream Wall”

 I am the woman that makes things happen in creative ways. I connect people, imagine things, and inspire others to put their best foot forward and do what they love.

“Opportunity Producer” is my new job title.

However, “It” wasn’t able to come to fruition until I had met all the people I’ve encountered over the past 5 years that were able to show me a piece of myself or teach me something I would have never been able to learn otherwise. It is through other people that I found this title.

What is really interesting about this revelation is that on the very same notepad, I had written something down last week that was almost the exact same thing. In blue marker, it says: “I will be successful in lifting up and supporting others in the pursuit of their dreams.”

From my “Project Wall” AKA “The Dream Wall”

Apparently, my purpose has been with me all along. I mean duh…
But it took a name for everything to come together. A name. A frame. An idea.

Coming up with this name provided a lens in which I could see my future.
That’s how powerful names are.

What I mean is, if you call yourself Ugly, stupid, just lucky or not enough…. these are the ways you frame your future. It makes it hard to see how tomorrow could look magical when you give yourself names that suck.

This is a very real thing – I learned it and re-learned in absolutely every communication studies class I have ever had.

Ever since I accepted the things that made me different I’ve wanted to label them – in an attempt to understand their full potential and put them to use.

Things like being a survivor, being a thinker a writer, a dancer, a businesswoman and an artist. These are all thinks that make up a part of me, and each one took time to name. But once I did, I indulged my passions and my differences the way their names called for, until they lead me to one big name I could light the way with.

For the first time in my life, I feel grounded and rooted and safe when I think about the future, becuase I know I will be following my heart, and my heart can finally see where it’s going.

From my “Project Wall” AKA “The Dream Wall”

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