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Instagram Catch ups.

So if some how you came across the blog some other way than through my Instagram (annasbanana123), Here’s the post for you to catch up on everything that I wrote about before: 

                                                                                                                                                                   

                                                   February 18, 2014

Before you judge this picture please understand the story behind it. I have recently been struggling with the aftermath of an event that occurred in September of last year. It was something that really rattled my innermost being and I found myself in a place where I was constantly questioning everything and suffering through numbness and confusion. I wanted to go back to the person I was when I took this picture. I wanted to be naive, carefree and unguarded – the way I was, and always had been, before being tainted by the cruelties of life. However in the darkest part of my journey to heal I had a realization. An epiphany. And this started the upward track I am on now. Suffering gives way to growth, self understanding and improvement. With self improvement comes acceptance. Acceptance for what things were and how things are. I have realized that I am enough to fight the hardships I face. And now instead of chasing the old me, I am forming a new me. The words in the picture represent the words that are important to me as I continue healing and growing through my experience. I hope this reaches out to at least some of you and is a source of encouragement for you to keep going in any hardship you may face.#lifelessons


                                                                                                                                                                   

March 13, 2014





Sometimes the best way to heal the heart is to go home. Snuggle into your own bed and surround yourself with people that love you. #homewardbound

                                                                                                                                                                   

March 14, 2014


Update on my healing: Do not let others define you. Do not let the past, a choice, a single decision, mistakes, or people who have hurt you define you. What defines you is how you deal with each situation and the example you set for others. Let each hardship build you up to be a more beautiful and gracious person. I am learning that each of my experiences, good and bad, have become a part of my story. The story I will carry with me for the rest of my life. Some experiences in my story are not as easily carried and therefore become heavier, which in turn makes me a stronger person. I will not let these heavy burdens or hurtful people drag me down and define who I am or who I will become.#photoshoot #pointeshoes #flashbackfriday #motivation #motivationalpost

                                                                                                                                                                   

March 17, 2014

I love making friends and meeting people because each person that crosses our path can tells us a little bit about ourselves. Sometimes growing up means doing stupid things making mistakes and occasionally getting hurt. Luckily, we don’t have to go through these hardships alone. Growing up also means connecting with different people and learning about yourself through them and the things you do. And I think everyone is searching without realizing it. Searching for themselves through real connections with other people and their souls. This is someone I met over break. I’m very grateful our paths crossed briefly, because in that short time I discovered a connection that made me feel very hopeful and refreshed. The beauty of meeting new people is that they can’t see what you have been through or what you’ve done, all they see is who you have become and who you are in that present moment. Embrace yourself just the way you are and rejoice in the beauty of others. #motivationalmonday #sb14 #beach #mcm

                                                                                                                                                                   

March 28, 2014
I love making friends and meeting people because each person that crosses our path can tells us a little bit about ourselves. Sometimes growing up means doing stupid things making mistakes and occasionally getting hurt. Luckily, we don’t have to go through these hardships alone. Growing up also means connecting with different people and learning about yourself through them and the things you do. And I think everyone is searching without realizing it. Searching for themselves through real connections with other people and their souls. This is someone I met over break. I’m very grateful our paths crossed briefly, because in that short time I discovered a connection that made me feel very hopeful and refreshed. The beauty of meeting new people is that they can’t see what you have been through or what you’ve done, all they see is who you have become and who you are in that present moment. Embrace yourself just the way you are and rejoice in the beauty of others. #motivationalmonday #sb14 #beach #mcm

                                                                                                                                                                   

April 1, 2014



I lift my head in victory; you have not taken any part of me because I have not let you. You have violated my body but you will not touch my soul. My spirit will burn brightly as you fall underneath it’s shadows. Never let anyone tell you who you are. #motivationalmonday #ontuesday #selfieasundayontuesday photo by@emilypaige7ate9

                                                                                                                                                                   


April 10, 2014

“Nothing can dim the light which shines from within” -maya Angelou@ma_petite_bAallerine emoji️ Each person has a beautiful energy inside of them that fuels their souls. When it’s damaged, like mine was, it’s easy to feel lost, and unworthy of happiness or love. But you can overcome that blockage, and you can feel human again. Worthy of every love and every happiness. My escape was through friendship and dance. I combined the two safest and nonjudgmental places in creating this piece (the arms of my friends and the dance studio) and I’m so excited to finish editing this video so you all can see what I’ve been working so hard on the past few weeks! It was an incredible healing experience and I hope it reaches out to people and comforts them too. 
                                                                                                                                                                   
April 20, 2014

Remember you have a purpose, and so does your suffering. It all has a place in Gods plan no matter how awful things may be. Some how they all fall into place. Take this from someone who has experienced it. #natureishealing#lakegeorgetown #bigworld 

                                                                                                                                                                   

Today May 25, 2014
Teaser #1 “Crying is not a sign of weakness. Since birth it has been a sign that you are alive” #photoshoot #strength

Annabelle What is this…?

This is my very first post! Here is where I want to explain the meaning behind this blog. I had a rough experience my first semester of college that complete changed my life. 

And since the very beginning of my healing process I wanted to share it with people. I felt like I was unraveling the mysteries of human nature and I wanted a way to share my discoveries. I thought my thought could possibly help someone else struggling with suffering of there own. I started posting Instagram posts (annasbanana123) but then I realized not everyone has the patience to read what I wrote in the captions because most of them tended to be pretty long. So I decided to create this! A place that I can share my experience, organize my projects and art and have as much room as I want to write about my thoughts, struggles and opinions.

If all goes well here I may open up an email account so you, my reader, my contact me for support or to ask any questions you may have! I’ll be sure to post if I decide to do that.

But basically this blog is about my life and how it’s changed since I have embrace the title “Survivor”

Have a wonderful day!