In my Instagram post, I said that “beyond physical health, there is also spiritual, emotional, mental, environmental, and social health.”
I want to go deeper into that…
Spiritual health is not just whether you believe in God or not, it’s about how you focus your energy. It’s about your pillars of truth and the things you believe in that keep you grounded. This is the center from which most of your decisions come from.
Emotional health is not just being happy, it’s about learning how to live with the things you feel and channeling those emotions out in the world in constructive ways.
Mental health is your mindset which is influenced by chemicals in your brain and also has a very strong connection to your emotional health.
Environmental health is your physical environmental which is composed of a lot of things you can & can’t control. The things you can control are things like cleaning your room or organizing your desk. Things you can’t directly control include the amount of pollution in your city when a wildfire burns near your home, federal rulings on health care.
I also want to add time management in here too. Learning how to influence your environment and the power you have to change it by how you spend your time is important too.
Social health is about the people you keep around you. It’s about all the different kinds of relationships you have and whether or not those relationships are lifting you up or dragging you down. Also, it calls to question how you treat others, which is directly related to mental and emotional health.
In reality, all of these things are very connected to each other but in modern medicine, we don’t talk about these connections as much. Story Time
On my Instagram post, I mentioned how I’ve been saying no to a lot of things.
It’s because I’m trying to gain strength, in my mind, body, soul, environment, and friendships to prepare for life after graduation. To slowly transition in order to give me the best shot in conquering my goals and dreams.
And I wanted to share how empowering that has been, especially after today -which is the first time I’ve really noticed it.
Today, I chatted with a friend of mine who is also an ex-lover. It has been a few months since we’ve spoken to each other and after catching up, the conversation turned to where it used to always go. Sex.
But today was different.
I didn’t want to. Like I really didn’t want to even though I knew how fun it would have been and how good it might have felt. I know my heart is somewhere else and I wanted to respect that. I didn’t want to muddy the feelings I have or make it more complicated. I also didn’t want to share myself with someone I didn’t have feelings for anymore.
But I was afraid to say no.
And that’s kind of weird for me considering I am usually pretty good at doing what I want and speaking my mind. It weird for me to feel like I couldn’t tell the truth.
So I sat back with that feeling and asked why. That’s when I realized that I was afraid of saying no because I was afraid of not being valued. I was afraid of him getting mad at me and not wanting to be my friend anymore if I didn’t give him what he wanted.
That’s not a good reason.
I come first!
It’s not selfish – I don’t want to have any kind of relationship with someone who makes me feel like I can’t tell the truth about the way I feel or speak my mind without him getting angry.
So I siked myself up. I told myself I was strong. I reminded myself of the commitment that I made about clearing out my life this season, which means saying goodbye to old habits and bad energy and clearing the way for the good stuff. And lastly, I reminded myself that I’d be perfectly fine (probably even better) if I didn’t have sex with him.
So I replied honestly. Instead of making excuses I told him I didn’t want to because my heart was somewhere else, but I did want to hang out as friends.
He flipped shit. Told me I teased him & toyed with him. I told him I didn’t mean to – that I was trying to make a decision and that I was afraid to say no.
I WAS AFRAID TO SAY NO. *Red flag*
That part didn’t register with him.
After an angry phone call, he blocked me & I didn’t care.
I felt empowered. I didn’t even cry. I was proud of myself. I took control of my body and my feelings and did what was best FOR ME. And there is nothing wrong with that. Of course, I felt bad that he felt so bad about the whole thing, and I felt bad that I bruised his ego. But if he really meant what he said he loved me as a person and friend then I would have expected him to respect my decision in a respectful way. He has no rights to my body – no one does. So to act the way he did was wrong.
Anyway, it was just another step I took to take care of myself in this new season.
I have also stepped back from my job, which has left me more time to strengthen my friendships and also prepare mentally and emotionally for what may lie ahead. I’m making an effort to strengthen my spiritual health by reading books, praying regularly, and listening to podcasts. I’m working out regularly, getting rid of a lot of my clothes, furniture, and possessions.
And I’m doing it all because I want to be the strongest I can possibly be for the next phase of my life – and it’s working! I’m feeling better about myself and more rooted every day and I can’t wait for my next journey to begin.
I wanted to write this to remind you, the beautiful, strong, fierce, woman or man reading this, that you CAN say no and that it is okay.
You don’t have to convince yourself that you want it. You don’t have to do it. You CAN walk away.
Whether it be a draining job, an unhealthy relationship or a toxic environment, a bad habit, or whatever it is holding you back.
I’m taking care of myself now. And I love myself a lot. And it took me a reeeeeeaaaaally long time to get to this point, but it’s so worth it.
If you can’t think of anything that is holding you back I suggest you do some self-reflection because the things might be more invisible to you.
Once you can see it doesn’t have to control your life anymore.
It’s like leaving a sock on the floor and then walking by it so many times that you forget it’s there – it becomes a part of your everyday life. It’s not until you decide to clear your floor that you realize you were stepping over it every day.
We have to listen to the way we feel in different situations and hold tight to what those feelings are telling us. Ask questions, dig deeper.
Imagine where you want to be or the kind of woman or man you’d like become and make the decision you think that person would make. Manifest what you want and say no to the things you don’t need or don’t improve your life/make you happy.
You deserve the best and you deserve to be healthy, but most of all you deserve your own love.