Not an Oak Tree (my 2020 theme) but close enough. Apparently, the internet elves have been stalking me long enough to know I love planners and goal setting because this past week I have been hit with more Instagram ads for planners and intention setting workshops than I've ever seen in my whole life. I've been just scrolling through so many beautiful, perfect-looking people and their big hairy-ass goals for 2020. I actually began to resent all the goal-setting this year because I ha[...]
Okay yes, I just posted a picture of myself crying. Here’s the story: During my last week in L.A. I had a MAJOR back spasm that left me barely able to walk or sit or breathe without pain. It caught me totally off guard and made me so angry because I had spend so much money and time the month before trying to heal myself from the same back spasm + pain. I thought I had fixed it.My best friend + former roommate, Rylee, dropped everything that day to help me schedule and then drive me to a[...]
Moody AF Selfie before crying a lot on the airplane Today marks 4 full months since my dad died. Since he killed himself. And left us behind. I've spent the past 4 months floating through a range of challenging emotions and although it was evident yesterday I am not done grieving the loss of someone I love, I'm ready to share my story. Our story. I'm back in L.A. this week, for the first time in 4 months. I keep telling people that I don't feel like it's been t[...]
I drew this by accident. The wave has been my symbol for 2019. Actually, it started out as the phrase "Stepping into the Tide" and slowly revealed itself in my life as a wave. I saw it everywhere... on murals, at restaurants, in gifts + on jewelry. I even DREW IT BY ACCIDENT a few days ago (image above).The wave is a symbol of change, of force, and sometimes, even of fear. When I was a kid, we used to go to the beach in the summers. I remember watching "huge" waves crash onto the sh[...]
Originally Written April 5, 2019 This morning, I was sitting on my little green meditation pillow with my legs crossed, eyes closed, palms up, and tears rolling down my cheeks. I've been meditating a lot recently. Every day in fact, for the past 3 weeks. Most days it's really nice, other days, it's 10min of utter chaos + mental to-do lists, but I consistently walk away from my little green pillow grateful for that time.When I meditate without a guided recording, I do this:1. Deep steady breaths to an[...]
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